*Totgeliebt4eva* Hope/Desire

About Me

I DON'T EXPECT MANY THINGS FROM LIFE, EXCEPT:
1. SUCCESS AND A PIECE OF HAPPINESS FROM TIME TO TIME.
2. BE WITH MY LOVED ONES.
3. MAKE MY PARENTS AND EVERYONE I KNOW WHO LOVES ME BE PROUD OF MY STEPS.
4. BECOME A PUBLISHED POET SO THAT I CAN EXPRESS MY VIEWS ON ALL THOSE BLOODY THINGS GOING ON IN THIS WORLD.
5. REMAIN A GREAT SUPPORTER OF CINEMA BIZARRE.

When I was still kid, people used to say nasty things to me and though I never understood what they really meant, I felt that their words were bad. I became angry, always ready to fight, but I kept my anger under control... When I grew up and started going to school, their words became harsher and harsher... I couldn't really understand why they behaved like that towards me, until one day, I gathered enough courage and asked them... For the first time in my life I felt different, I hated myself, I hated who I was, I hated being a mix kid!!!
When I was in search of my raison-d'etre, someone close to me betrayed me. She took full advantage of my innocence and destroyed my relationship with someone I cared for! I used to take the blame on myself; but then I realised that it was no use crying over spilled milk... I met my best friends, and they helped me get out of my darkness, they were always there and most importantly, they accepted me for whom I was, the one I am and always tell me not to change. I have cool parents, though they set strict rules, they are very open. They are more like friends than parents. I have a brother who supports me and gives me advices though he's younger and I really love that!
However, whenever I'm lonely, I find warmth in a world of freedom, a world of my own... I found my self in poetry as it was the only thing to which I could really express myself since I was nine, and it was the only thing which I felt 'understood' me. Many people judge me without really knowing my inner persona, and this really aggrevates me!
Yes I may be cold, yes, I may be insolent, hurtful, indifferent, rigid, but however I'm also responsible, reliable, ambitious, funny, friendly, etc.. And I have enough guts to point out my worst traits and this really make me feel special. I'm just proud of myself.
You just have to get to know me...

My Interests

Poetry, Cinema Bizarre, Manchester United, Life, Glamour, Internet, Literature in English, Learning many Languages, Philosophy, Increase Knowledge, Work of William Shakespeare, Alexander Pope.

Music

Cinema Bizarre, Placebo, Scorpions, Guns&Roses, Rammstein, Bon Jovi, Avantasia, Skillet, Flyleaf, Bullet for my Valentine, Tokio Hotel, Alice Nine, Lostprophets, Nightwish, L'arc-en-ciel, Enigma, Kaolin, James Blunt, Eminem, Dir En Grey

Movies

Face off, The Bourne Trilogy, 'V' for Vendetta, Da Vinci Code, Alexander, The Departed, Spiderman (all), Harry Potter (all), Final Fantasy: Advent Children, The Lion King 3, Eurotrip, Rock Star, School of Rock

Television

DBZ (watch online), La famille pirate, Inspecteur Gadget, Heroes, Desperate Housewives, Mangas

Books

'Sati' by C.Pike, 'To Kill a Mockingbird' by Harper Lee, 'The Cult' by Max Ehrlich, 'Cat's Eye' by Margaret Atwood, 'Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince' by J.K Rowling, 'A Midsummer Night's Dream' by Shakespeare, DBZ